i falter as the music stops...

stacatto

My christmas feels like deja vu all over again.

I'm tired. of all of this.

I wanted to write A grown up christmas list. And add one of those silly little girl wishes at the bottom that says, a home.

stacatto

On the risk of sounding horribly and inexcusably honest, here goes.

Every girl dreams that guys who've left them in the past would come back running, on their knees and begging for forgiveness, saying that they've never stopped thinking about them and all that cheezy fashiznit that makes up the romantic movies that we watched.

But honestly? You've asked to come back, well you didn't ask. You just came comming back, as if, nothing happened in the first place. And if i were to invent a conversation between us two, I would say to hell with it. I'm alright with friendship, but i can't be as close as you want me to be. Even if you need me. Because I don't trust you.

I don't trust  you with my heart. I don't trust you with the truth. And i don't trust you to have my back when i need it.

Some girls may settle for it. But i'm not one of them. Because I am averse to user-friendly people. Schooled a lot in that aspect.

stacatto

I feel like i'm on a rollercoaster ride lately.

I think I need to overindulge in chocolates or bananas (anti-depressed food) lol

There's so much I wanna do, but i feel like I'm so limited. wonder why.

stacatto

Cinderella's on her bedroom floor she's got a
Crush on the guy at the liquor store
Cause Mr. Charming don't come home anymore and she forgets why she came here.

Sleeping Beauty's in a foul mood for shame she says
None for you dear prince, I'm tired today.
I'd rather sleep my whole life away than have you keep me from dreaming

CHORUS
I don't care for your fairytale
You're so worried 'bout the maiden,
though you know she's only waiting on the next best thing

Snow White is doing dishes again cause what else can you do
With seven itty bitty men?
Sends them to bed and she calls up a friend, says will you meet me at midnight.

The tall blonde lets out a cry of despair says
Would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair
I'll have to find another tower somewhere and keep away from the windows.

CHORUS
I don't care for your fairytale
You're so worried 'bout the maiden,
though you know she's only waiting on the next best thing

Once upon a time in a faraway kingdom, man made up a story
Said that I should believe him
Go and tell your white knight that he's handsome in hindsight
but I don't want the next best thing
So I sing and hold my head down and I break these walls 'round me
Can't take no more of your fairytale love

CHORUS
I don't care for your fairytale
You're so worried bout the maiden,
though you know she's used to waiting spent her whole life being graded on the
sanctity of patience and a dumb appreciation
The story needs some mending and a better happy ending cause I don't want the next best thing no no I don't want the next best thing.

Fairytale by Sara Bareilles.

i find it utturly comforting. the poetry is inspiring. =) i love it.

stacatto

Okay, three chat windows.

All ladies really really close to my heart.

one window is about past/current habits and timelines and sperm banks. Don't ask. im just laughing haha.

Another one is on LDRs. :) and how hard it's getting. and love how airhead keeps my feet on the ground.

And the other is my favorite. About SIMS. it's so funny. =) i adore this bonding thing we have roomie. haha. imagine how much craziness we would have if we had this in 503 together. haha.

I want to be able to put the EPs na. So yeah i need to get the external harddrive so can play sims with univ. nightlife and everything else.  :)

and uhh, i really am not used to talking na.